Abstract

I woke up this morning feeling a little puzzled.
All of sudden, a certain part of my brain has decided to play oldies out of the blue.
Some memories from my past, randomly & intensely bubbling on my mind from the moment I opened my eyes.
It's weird, since I'm a kind of 'present' people.
I don't like living in the past. I let everything that happened in the past become either a sweet memory or a lesson. But I never let my past become a shadow in my present time.
I hardly looking back over my shoulder, have no regrets, never watch the same movies twice, always look and moving forward.
What has been done, it can not be undone. The only thing I would do is learn from my mistake and do better next time.
I don't know why my brain having a time travel this morning, in fact I'm lack of sleep because of my stomach hurts so bad all night long.
Well I guess, no body knows how it works. Sometimes its just happen, just like a dream blooming in your sleep.

Time flies. It's been almost a half year, since the last time I posted a note on this blog.

Been there, done that. I traveled a lot in the past 6 months.

From the south to the north. From the east to the west.

Literally and emotionally. 

I'm blessed, having a chance to see so many beautiful places around the world.

I'm lucky, having a chance to try so many delicious food around the world.

From macaroons in France, pasta in Italy, paella in Spain, bratwurst in Germany, xiao long bao in China, hamburgers in USA, gyros in Greece, to crispy duck in Ubud.

One thing I've learned from those amazing journeys is always live in the present. 

Cherish the moment, taste every bite of the food that you put into your mouth, enjoy what's on your plate, take a deep breath, exhale slowly, fully engaged into the 'NOW', and forget the rest.

Life is a short journey. Be a light traveler.

Never bring your 'past' luggage into the present. 

Takes in only what's the most matter thing to you.

Let go of the rest.

Detach yourself from anything that can hold you back. 

Enjoy your precious life, now.

Hiatus

Ouwww my God, it feels good to have an access on my mobile again after a week of hiatus. I've survived, a week living without my Blackberry, my laptop and my modem. Without any access to check my e-mail, my fb, my blog, my UT, my sms, my bbm, or even just to googling some information on Mr. Google.
Not that I did it on purpose at the first place, having my hiatus moment, away from all my high tech gears. It's all because we decided to change our internet provider at home and at the same time I'd a problem with my mobile provider.

Now, we have a new internet provider for our home, but we still have to wait for the new wifi modem in order to use it. So, in the mean time I do all the surfing through my mobile.

Apart from a weird feeling that I couldn't check my email regularly, I found that a week without all the communication devices is very important to balancing my mind, body and soul. Maybe for those who works will definetely not be able having a week of hiatus, but one or two days will do as good as a week if you really can put away and turn off your mobile or any communication device.

It's really a good exercise, to hybernate your mind for a while. Living in your cave, away from the noisy and busy world out there, just focus on your soul and listen to your breath and fully aware of your inner being. It's so peaceful and relaxing.

I feel recharged and energized.
I have more of positive energy either in my mind or my soul.
And it's good for my body.
It's cleared my mind from all the un-necesarry spams and junks.

So, why don't you try to have your hiatus moment?
It will bring you back to the present, set your soul free, purify your heart, clean your mind and detox your body.

2010

Wow, it's 2010 already...
Happy new year dear blogger, hope this brand new year will bring all the good things coming to our life. Always stay positive!

It's been a month since my last post.
As always December's my most bussiest month of the year. You know, merry go around with all Christmas & New Year's euphoria. :)

Starting with presents hunting for all of my big family, decorating the christmas tree, watching Christmas movies w/ my nieces & nephews, wrapping all the presents and put it under the tree, making a list of my nieces & nephews performance on Christmas & New Year's Eve, listening to Christmas CDs all the time, watching my nieces & nephews practising their dancing movement, singing, cabarets and so on. December it's totally my jolly time of the year. Full of joy and love. :)

To respect my family tradition, I never been away from home/my family on Christmas & New Year's eve except when I lived in Germany. Since I'm married, I've tried to share our time with our two families.
I'm very happy that so far it works very well. We spent time with my family on Christmas & New Year's eve, and with my husband's family on Christmas & New Year's Day.

Based on that tradition, my husband and I were planning to have a quick holiday on the first week of 2010. Just to refresh our energy and have our quality time in Singapore.
I'll post about it on my traveloque's notes.

I thank God so muuuuuuuuch for His never ending bless and grace upon our life. For this brand new year.
Hope we can always make the best of it. Happy 2010!

Good Bye Mbah

I've been bed resting at home since few days ago.
Right after my husband's lovely grandma (Mbah) has passed away.
I already feeling sick when I was at Mbah's funeral, but I pushed myself to be strong
until it's finished.

I was shocked and sad, when I heard about the news.
We went to the hospital together at the night before she's passed away.
She was suffering from a mild heart attack few hours before, so we brought her to the hospital. Unfortunately, she doesn't want to sleep over at the hospital when the Doctor said she needs to be monitoring for the next 2-3 days.
She said firmly, "I want to go home with my family. I'm strong and fine. There's no need for me to stay at the hospital. I'm not sick."
So the Doctor didn't want to pushed our Mbah, she just gave some medicines just in case Mbah feel some pain.

Before we're going home (Mbah is living with my mother in law), my hubby and I kissed Mbah forehand and forehead.
Wishing her to get well soon.
Mbah smiling at us, and gave her blessing as always right after she said thank you.

Clearly, God has another plan for Mbah.
In the early morning, we heard the news that our dearest Mbah has passed away.
Just a few minutes after she'd a second heart attack.
At that time, I realized why Mbah face was so glowing last night.
Just like an angel...
We're very sad knowing that Mbah has gone, but we're glad that we still had a chance
to say goodbye last night.

May you rest in peace Mbah.
May God bless your soul.


We always love you Mbah.
You're the most kindest person that I've ever known.


Note:
Mbah has passed away on December 7, 2009.
Right two months before her 93rd birthday, on February 7, 2010.

BestFriends Forever

I'm sitting on a comfy sofa at my favourite coffee shop in town,
sipping a cup of hot earl grey tea
(Lately I become more a tea person than a coffee person..),
accompany with Christmas songs playing on the background,
writing this blog while waiting for my bestfriends to come.
They're stuck on the traffic, which always happens in Jakarta most of the time 'by the way' especially when it comes to weekend or rainy season.

And now heavy rain's pouring down outside, I could imagine how chaos the traffic must be.
So, I guess I have plenty of time to sit here alone, thinking, and writing this blog.
Make myself even comfort with a delicious beef pastle. :)

It's been a while since the last time I'd met two of my bestfriends that now I'm waiting for.
Couple of months ago to be more specific.
Quite long, isn't it?
But compare to some other bestfriends of mine, who I haven't meet them in years well, is not that looong actually. :))

I've been thinking about my life recently.
As the time goes by,
I realize there're some significant changes in the way of I live my life,
in the way of thinking, in the way I see things, in the way I pursuit of my happiness,
in the way I deal with grief and loss, in the way I treasure of real friendship nowadays.

Getting older, got married, dealed with grief and loss of some precious family members including my unborn baby,
moved back to where my nest is, settled down after years of 'traveling'.
Something definetely has changed in me.

If before I used to be a social butterfly with hundreds of friends,
now I could use only one hand to count how many bestfriends that I always keep in touch with.
It doesn't mean that I'd ignored the rest of my friends out there (Thanks to Facebook),
it's mean that I become more selective to share my personal life only with bestfriends of mine.

Bestfriends that have been selected by times.
Bestfriends who always be there for me through good and bad times,
though we couldn't even meet each other regularly once in a year because we're living in different countries and continents
(Two of them, that I'm about to meet now are living in Jakarta as well but still we're hardly have a chance to meet each other because we're traveling a lot in different times and places).

Not being able to meet each other as much as we want, makes us really appreciate every single way of communications that we've been using in order to keep in touch,
up dating our latest news, sharing our thoughts and feelings, and so on.

And whenever we have a chance to meet each other, we will definetely cheerish every second of it! Eventhough it's only a short bumping at the airport, it's more than enough for us to hug each other, having a very brief summary about our recent life affairs, with juicy gossips about recent dates, and bla..bla..bla. We're women anyway, we know really well how to compressed 300 pages of our life story to 1 page of breaking news. And vice versa. ;)

I don't mind for not having any friends available to meet up every week, month, even years. Because I know very well, that a true friendship is not define by how much time we spent for each other, but by how good we understood each other. A true friendship is define by the quality not the quantity of friendship itself. A true friendship preferred a good critic with a sincere heart than a sweet kiss on the lips with a mediocre heart. Having one bestfriend that sincerely care for us is enough to make our life rich. More than one is absolutely a BONUS! :)

I'm very blessed, having a sweet yet caring husband and all of my bestfriends surrounding my soul wherever they are. All of them make my life so wonderful.

I dedicated this post to all of my bestfriends around the world. Thank you for loving me just the way I am. Thank you for never judging me, thank you for being there always everytime I needed. Thank you for simply being my bestfriends.
Love you all.
BestFriend Forever!

Our Dream House

Finally we have our dream house.
Thank you dear God...
After a long process of hunting, saving, bargaining, administrating, and etc., we could finally owned a place called our house.
A small house surrounded by a beautiful garden where lilies, irish, golden araleas, palms, crossandras, tabernas, pines, and etc. lives together in a harmony.

Since I was a little, I always dreaming about having a small house with a backyard full of trees and flowers where my hubby and I can sit in the morning/afternoon sipping our tea and reading our books while our dog playing with the kids. :)
My heaven on earth.

And now, one by one my dreams becomes reality.
Today, after signed a lot of papers we've got our housekeys.
It feels great.
After years of hunting and few months of struggling to saved every cent of our money, with a help of house credit facility finally we could have our dream house.
A place that soon to be our new 'home'.

We should wait for a while until we could moves to our new house.
We need to save some money first to buy furnitures for our house, because our saving's broke already to bought the house. :)

Really can't wait to be HOME...

Ups & Downs

It's quite a long after we came back from our China's trip (last July). Haven't got the right time and mood to write some up dates here in my blog.

Right after I came back from China, I was sick for almost 3 weeks. Not sure why I became so weak at the time? Since I just came from Beijing and other cities in China, my family have a concern about my illness. They're afraid if I've got a Schweine/Bird Flu in China especially because I've got all the sympthoms in me. (A very bad cough, fever, nausea, headache, stomach pain, etc).

But thanks God, after having a series of medical check ups my condition was getting better. And the Doctor said that I was simply too tired because of the trip and the weather change (it's summer in China), and got an infection on my throat.

God's always been good to us.
Whenever I traveled with a backpack style (read: budget), I never got any trouble or sick. And when I traveled with a VIP level, I got sick but still can enjoy my trip because they're taking care of me and I had no worried about the food, medicines and the car. I can go whenever I want with a car that has been reserved for us. I can sleep whenever I want in a comfort and cozy hotel room.

The only trouble that I had back then was, I can't go to the airport while I still have my flu and fever. In every airport in China they have a fever detector. And every one who has a flu and fever, wasn't allow to leave the airport or coming in to their country. The China government will immediately put 'the patient' into a carantine. Not only the patient but also the whole group who traveled together with the patient. This is the only way to prevent the epidemic of Schweine/Bird Flu getting worse in their country. So my hubby and I stayed in Beijing 2 days longer from our 5 days schedule. And soon after I felt better, we fly to Shenzhen and later to Hong Kong before going back to Jakarta.

When we're finally arrived in Jakarta, the first thing we do was went to the Doctor. We can't go to the doctor in China, because they will immediately labeled me as a "Suspect Flu" and I would not allow to leave their country until they do some observation on me. Geez, thanks God that's not happened to me. :))

After being fully recovered from my illness, I was busy preparing our next trip at the time. We planned to travel to Australia at the end of August. We're going to celebrate my birthday in Melbourne (after celebrated my hubby birthday in Beijing), then go to Sydney and Canberra. That's a BIG plan!

In fact, we're not going anywhere. The Aussie's trip was cancelled. The doctor wasn't allowed me to go traveling abroad. Just a week before my 33rd birthday, we just found out that I'm 7 weeks pregnant. Praise the Lord!
So just when we've got our Aussie's visas, we cancelled our flights. All of them: Starting with Air Asia in JKT and KL, Virgin Blue in Melb - Syd - Can, Greyhounds in Syd and Can.

Unfortunately, a week after my birthday we just found out that I've an Ectopic Pregnancy so it should be terminated as soon as possible. (I'm going to write about this Ectopic Pregnancy later in my other post). So right on my 8 weeks pregnancy, my dearly fetus was flying back to Heaven. :) Say Hi to God, will you?

After my CS surgery, where the doctor's removed my 'kistas' and my fetus I need to bedrest for 3 days and slowly learn to walk and climb the stairs.
After a while here I am, fully recovered physically and mentally. I need only 3 weeks after the surgery, to do my yoga, run up and down on the stairs, driving to anywhere I want. While my doctor said, usually it takes 3 months until I will fully recovered. :)

Thank you Lord for giving me all of wonderful ups and downs in my life, which I believes it will make me a stronger, better, and happier person than I was before. Amen.

A Big Surprise!

Still related to my previous post about, Life is full of surprises...
I've got one recently. Quite a BIG surprise actually.
And it leads to a massive changes in a travel plan that I've already made.

This week, my hubby (also my father + my sister + my brother in law) had planned to take 2 days off from their work.
We made a plan to traveling to Jogjakarta together with our big family.
Before the kids are going back to school, we want to spend some times on this almost-over-school-holiday together in Central of Java.
We would like to see a magnificent Borobudur Temple, a gorgeous Prambanan Temple, a nice retreat at Sendangsono, Keraton, Parang Tritis Beach, Magelang city and etc.
It would be a great family holiday, am sure.

The plan has been made, everything is ready on our checklist.
Starting from my cousin place, where we're going to stay during the holiday to our cars (We're traveling by cars this time).
We just have to wait until today according to our travel plan.

But you know what...??
We've got a very big surprise!
Just when everything is settled, we've got a news from my hubby that everything need to be cancelled!

Few days ago, my hubby got a phone call from his boss.
His boss asking him to go to China for a meeting today even though he had already taking two days off, just right on our schedule to go to Jogjakarta.

Shocked!
Of course, we have only two days to arrange everything including our visas and tickets!
Geez, we're going to China for God sake not to Surabaya.
We need at least a week to prepare everything.

Just like my prediction, we're not gonna make it to go on 1st of July.
Our visas are issued. Our tickets are also ready to be issued.
But my hubby got a problem with an administrative thing on his office.
So the travel plan has been re-scheduled to 3rd of July, right on my hubby's birthday.

Instead of going to Jogjakarta, we're going to Hong Kong - Beijing - Shenzhen - Hong Kong.
We're very sorry that our family holiday was cancelled, but on the other hand we're so exciting to explore THE FORBIDDEN city + GREAT WALLS.

We thank you God for having an opportunity to go to Beijing and re-visit Hong Kong and Shenzhen again.
Hope everything will be OK this time, not like our previous experienced in Shenzhen.


PS: This gonna be a special event for my hubby. Celebrating his 34th birthday in 3 different countries. Jakarta - Hong Kong - Beijing. :)

1st Anniversary

Today, one year ago my husband and I had said our everlasting vows in front of our God, priest, families and friends.
Yes, a year has gone by since the day I married to my husband.
Time fly so fast.

Few days before my D-day, I wrote a post about my feelings yet my thoughts about the marriage itself at the time
(title: Check-In Times).
I didn't feel nervous at all, on the contrary I felt so relaxed.
I don't know why.., usually people get nervous when they're about to marry their lover.
But it doesn't happened in my case.
I felt so relaxed and ready to make a life time commitment with the one that I believed as my soulmate.

I knew him since I was in my sophomore.
We've been together for 12 years with all ups and downs, on's and off's. :')
When we broke up years ago, we promised that we'll let everything fall in it's place.
Let it go and let it be.
If we're MEANT to be together, the love will find a way and we'll be together again, somehow, somewhere.
But if it's not, than we're not meant to be together.

Since than we lived in different continent, far away from each other.
So much things happened along the way, either in my life or his.
People comes and goes, some stay in our life and heart left some footprints.
People changes, and so do we.
Life has been easy and tough sometimes.
Still, we always shared everything happened in each other life.
We're always there for each other no matter how far we're from each other.
We're like a brother and a sister.., always looking for each other for comfortness.

Slowly but sure, life has led and guided us to walks on the same path again.
The love's still there. Though we're a different person now which I believed in a positive way,
we still have the same feeling and we know each other very well.
Love has found the way back.., which means we're MEANT to be together.

So here we are, on our first anniversary saying a little prayer:

Dear Lord,
help us to remember when we first met and the strong love that grew between us.
To work that love into practical things so nothing can divide us.
We asks for words both kind and loving, and for hearts always ready to ask forgiveness as well as to forgive.
Dear Lord, we put our marriage into your hands.
Amen.

Looking back on those wonderful days during the first year of our marriage, I'm so grateful that God
has sent a great husband yet a guardian angel in my life.
Eventhough, we still lives with my parents it doesn't prevent us from being happy and enjoy every single moment
of our blissful marriage.

I know, that we still have a long way to go but I have no doubt to face the future and keep on walking side by side with my husband
because I know very well, that God works on our marriage.
Our first year of marriage has teached us about respect and understanding.
Praise the Lord, that we're almost never had a fight because we're always respect and understanding each other no matter
how bad the situation is.

Thank you Lord for a WONDERFUL year that you've been given to us.
May we always learn to nourish the love that you gave to us, and always gives our best to each other.


PS: I love you hon.., thank you for being a great husband for me.

A Real Life

After spent almost 6 years living abroad...
I realized that many things has been changed ever since.
I'm not the same person anymore as I was.
Not only my eyes are now open wide but especially my mind.

I never stop to thank God for all of the opportunities that He has given to me.
Without His mercy, I would never be like who I am now.
Living in abroad had teaches me to be a realistic person.
I learnt how to survive.., I learnt how to make a good decision...
I learnt about how to live my life to the fullest with all ups and downs.
Life is always move forward like a clock that always ticking anyway.
There's no point to linger on our past.., except to take a lesson from the mistakes that we've made.

Just move on and let everything falls behind.


* Dedicated to Muenster my second home...*

Lucky!

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

-Jason Mraz-

PS:
I like this song so muuuuuuuch and I'd like to dedicate it to my lovely husband for the greatest love that he always gives me. I love you much, hon...

*Nice Distraction*

After spent the rest of weekend,
in full of mourning-griefing-gloomy heart and broken spirit.
I think, I really need a nice distraction...

So I decided, better for me to go out and get a life. Having a nice meal, sitting on a comfy sofa and drinking my favourite coffee, writing this post with an awesome voice of Frank Sinatra slowly singing My Little Valentine with his Big Band on the background.

I feel so content, all by myself.
Simple things, big pleasures.
All we have to do is, spend a little time by your self doing nothing, reading a good book as a companion, lay back and relax, smell the coffee's aroma from your cup, and simply feel the taste...
What else do you need..?
Life is beautiful as simple as that.

Two hours to go until my husband is coming, I still have plenty of time to read my fav book at this time "The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari" by Robin S. Sharma.
Hmmm, a warm waffle with chocolate fudge and one scoop of chocolate ice cream on top is a perfect combination with my coffee.
The taste is sooooooo delicious..!!

Btw, I'm going to watch "Elegy" movie with my husband as soon as he's finished with his work. A movie about a passionate love affair between a college Professor (Oscar Winner, Ben Kingsley) and his student (Penelope Cruz). As their intimate connection tranforms them more than either could imagine a charge sexual contest evolves into an indelible love story. Kind of romantic love drama movie. Can't wait to see the movie.
Just exactly a nice distraction that I need...
Here I am, all set for moody mood of Love. :')



@ Pancious, Pancake House - Pacific Place

What a day..!

Waaaaks, my brain's so tired today.
Feels like my head's going to explode anytime soon... Sigh!

Many things needs to be done, all at once.
So I had to split my brain to do all things done in time.

Started with UNDP things this morning, until went to Dee Gee @ Barito.

As soon as I got home, I took Volker for walking and catched up a bit of fresh air before I continue to do my work again.

Really what a day...

Jully - August - September - At a glance...

It's been a while since my last posting.
Gosh, time really fly so fast..isn't it?

Soon after our wedding day (May 25th 2008), we went off for honeymoon.
Right after that, my brother in law got married.
Hanging around with my sister in law who came to Indonesia with her kids. (Miss you all so much, guys..!)

Been doing some businesses with my sister in law.
Met my old friends. Busy with familly's things (My parent's had an accident, my father in law got sick, etc.)
Went to Singapore and Malaysia with my husband ( for business trip - check up - pleasures for free..).
Nourishing my new puppy, Volker (a very cute Golden Retriever).

All of suddens, now is October already.
So here I am, writing a short journal about my activities on the last 3 months.
Rarely have time, to do a blog walking and writing actually...
(Maklum pengacara...: pengangguran banyak acara!)

:-)

But anyway, I'm happy now because I can up date my blog from my mobile.

Check-in Times

Ever since my partner had proposed me to be his wife, my life's turning into such "a-busy-hectic-exciting-yet-stressfull-indeed-exhausting-joyful-depressing-kind-periods-of-life".
Only few months left before May 25th 2008. Our big day.
Lot of things needs to be plan-prepare-and done!

Actually, my partner and I don't fancy kind of big yet glamorous wedding party.
We only want a small and beautiful wedding party, without so much an artificial things.
But because of several reasons, we decided to celebrate our wedding in a way that can make everybody happy & enjoy.
Especially our parents. It's only once in our life time anyway... And we don't mind to have a big party as long as we can afford it by ourselves.

So here we go...
We start by writing down a long and details checklist thingy in order to prepare our upcoming wedding party.
Every single thing that we need to thinks and prepares carefully.
From the venue reservation, my wedding dress, long guestlist, decoration, invitations, souvenirs, and the list goes on and on..and on again..,till a parking lot business.
Well, I guess everybody who has been married knows very well how's the feeling at the time being. ;)

At the same time, I have to work as well.
That's why I hardly have time to write an update here or even just to keep contact with my fellows.
Few weeks before the wedding, I've decided that I need a break from my work.
The main reason was because this wedding preparations consumed all of my energy, time and concentration.
No wonder though, because I do everything by myself.
Just to make sure everything is all right and in order to stick within our budget in the first place.

Apart from all technical things that I needs to prepare..,there's an important thing that also needs to be prepare.
My readiness. Physically yet mentally.
As we know that a marriage is a moment when two becomes one.
When two souls, two hearts, two heads, two egos, two dreams, two cultures, two habits, two weaknesses, two visions,two families, two principles, and many other two.., should be compromise to become ONE.
To blend in the harmony.

Lately, i've always been thinking ( or wondering?) of how it would be, or how does it feel when finally I reach that stage of life?

Then I think, it's a courage and a willingness to make a lifetime commitment that people needed most, once she/he decides to get married. Not only LOVE.
Love is an illusion. Love can faded away as time goes by.
When love is gone, only a commitment will still remains...

To be continue...

I'm Back.

Geez...
After a very bery long hiatus, now I'm back.
There're so many things happened since the last time I posted my poem.
But now, I just want to lay down my mind...
Looking back, reading my articles, just to have a short journey back there.

See you guys soon.
:)

First!

Today is the first day in 2007.
Last night was the first time in my life that I spend a New Year's eve alone.
Nevermind, for once in my life I should know how it feels. :)
Just stayed home. Tried to count my un-counted blessings in 2006.

Thanked God for the brand new coming year.
Thanked God for everything that He gave to me.

How could I ask Him more..?
He has showering me with so many blessings.
He has given me everything more than I've ever asked.

And I know that He will walk with me through the coming year.
So there's no need to worry about the future.
God is in control.

So 2007, I'm ready for you.

Saat-saat terakhir di 2006..!

Waktu berlalu begitu cepat.
Tanpa terasa, ku telah tiba di penghujung tahun 2006.
Begitu banyak hal yang telah ku lalui di sepanjang tahun ini.
Diwarnai oleh tawa, tangis, suka dan dukanya kehidupan.

Hidup tak pernah bosan melukiskan warnanya dalam setiap buratan peristiwa.
Jatuh dan terhempas dalam kegelapan yang kadang datang menyelimuti.
Bangun dan berjuang menghadapi keabuan yang kadang melelahkan.
Tersenyum bahagia menatap indahnya pelangi yang hadir saat badai berlalu.

Berbagai macam manusia pun datang dan pergi silih berganti dalam kalender 2006 ku.
Meninggalkan berbagai jejak dalam aneka rupa kesan dan warna.
Berbagai tempat pun ku singgahi dalam perjalanan menyusuri tahun ini.
Berbagai musim pun ku lalui, memberikan aroma dan nafasnya yang khas, terekam indah dalam ingatan.

Begitu banyak berkat yang diberikan-Nya...
Baik yang ku syukuri, maupun yang 'lupa' ku syukuri.
Begitu banyak tanya yang mencari jawabnya.
Begitu banyak kebimbangan yang mencari pastinya.

Dalam ragu ku terus melangkah..
Dalam pastinya ketidakpastian ku terus berjalan..
Berharap ku temukan pertanda di persimpangan tahun.
Menuntunku menyusuri likunya jalan hidupku.

Seiring dengan nadiku yang terus berdenyut..
Tanda masih adanya kehidupan dalam tubuh yang fana
Ku terus mencari arti sejati
Dari kehidupan yang tak kekal ini.

Kesalahan demi kesalahan pun terjadi..
Tidak untuk ku sesali, namun tuk ku perbaiki.
Kesulitan demi kesulitan pun ku atasi..
Tidak untuk ku sombongkan, namun tu ku renungkan.

Karna pada akhirnya..
Ada tanya yang tersisa,
Ke mana kan ku bawa akhir cerita hidupku ini...?
Akankah menuju kebaikan di satu hari nanti..?
Ataukah hanya membusuk lapuk tak berbentuk..?

Dalam hitungan jam, 2007 akan datang menghampiri.
Bagaimanapun, aku berharap semoga di tahun yang baru ini
Semuanya akan menjadi lebih baik lagi.
Tidak ada rangkaian resolusi yang ku buat.
Apalah artinya, kalo semua itu hanya sekedar pajangan belaka.

Selamat Tahun Baru semuanya..!

*Di saat petasan dan kembang api mulai riuh terdengar, lonceng gereja mulai berdentang bersahutan, ku pun tersenyum. Menyongsong datangnya 2007 dengan hati dan pikiran yang positif.*

Goodbye My Friend..

Suddenly I feel so sad.
I feel uneasy deep inside my heart now.
One of my good friends, just called me few minutes ago...
She called me to say goodbye.
She will go back to Indonesia for good tonight.

Eventhough I already knew about it since last month.
Still it doesn't make thing easier to handle.
It's a shame that I couldn't be with her in the last moment.
I just lost my words. I never get easy with a "farewell things". That's one of my weaknesses.
Even that it's only for a temporary.
It doesn't make any different for me.

Oh, I hate this feeling so much!
I hate to feel the beat of my heart get faster and faster..
I hate to feel the butterflies in my stomach spinning around..
I hate to feel the tears burst out from my eyes..
I hate to feel this way.

Goodbye my friend.
Be strong.
Till we meet again.
My prayer is with you.

*Thank's for those lovely moments that we shared!"