Life is Precious yet Fragile

Last week when my hubby was ill, I've got plenty of time to contemplating about my life.
Having a dialog with my mind, my heart, and my soul.
While my hubby lay down beside me, my mind's traveled to a certain year or periods in my life. Swam deeply among good memories and all those recorded moments in between.
Time flies.

Now it's 2010. And May is nearly here.
Feels like yesterday, when I moved back to Jakarta for good at the end of 2007.
Got married, lost my unborn child, lost several of my dearest family members, got a new dearly family member, got occupied with a series of very important family matters, and so on and so on.
As the years come and go like the flakes of pure white snow floating down and down floating only for a second before they dissapear forever so with people in my life, they come and go.

Have been seeing so many form of tragedies in this life, a disease, an accident, a sudden death, or other everyday occurrences, always remind me of the delicate balance of life.

It makes me come to another point of view of this life.
Life is indeed beautiful but yet is fragile.
How often we're walking too close to the edge only to realize too late that life is delicate..?
Well, reality bites.
Maybe this famous quote is sounds too cheesy or lame that we need to live our life to the fullest.., but it's absolutely TRUE. We don't have time like forever, right?

There're moments when I felt overwhelmed by the vastness of the universe because somehow it remind me how small I am and how people will die and gone at some point...
Why are we here? What is the purpose of life?
How many more breaths will I breathe in and blow out?

Have you ever seen a sunset so beautiful that you hoped it would never end?
I have.

And whenever I see the sunset it always remind me that nothing last forever.
Even this beautiful scenery has come to the end...
That's for LIFE is extraordinary PRECIOUS and FRAGILE in another way.

What about you? Have you live your life to the fullest..? Will you follow and listen to your heart for once in a while instead of drowning in your daily life's routines? Will you live to accomplish all that you dream?
And when finally you lie down to breathe your last, will your life have been worth living? What will be your regrets?
These are heavy questions, but ones all of us must ponder eventually.

I'll Take Care Of You

*25th May 2008 - Our Wedding Song*
I'll Take Care Of You
by Stephen Curtis C.

Aku Ingin

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan
kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya debu
Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan
awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada.

*Sapardi Djoko Damono*

Catatan Hati.

Berjalan menyusuri titian kehidupan
Berusaha menemukan arti dari setiap persimpangan
Melangkah perlahan, mencari kepastian
Akan mimpi yang di harap menjadi kenyataan

Tertegun hati ini menikmati keindahan
Keindahan yang menghadirkan kepedihan
Terpekur hati ini meratapi kepedihan
Kepedihan yang menghadirkan keindahan.


Notes: Di saat hati ini begitu mengilu akan keindahan dan kepedihan yang begitu enggan untuk di pisahkan.

How Do I Love Thee?

How do I love thee?
Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as man strive for Right
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,
I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!
and,
if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Notes:

You Make Me Feel Brand New

My love,
I'll never find the words my love,
to tell you how I feel my love.
Mere words, could not explain.

Precious love,
You held my life within your hands,
created everything I am,
you taught me how to live again.

Only you,
cared when I needed a friend,
believed in me through thick and thin,
this song is for you,
filled with graditude and love...

God bless you,
you make me feel brand new,
for God blessed me with you,

you make me feel brand new,
I sing this song 'cause you,
you make me feel brand new.

My love,
When ever I was insecure,
you built me up and made me sure,
you gave my pride back to me.

Precious friend,
With you I'll always have a friend,
There's someone who I can depend,
to walk a path that sometimes bends.

Without you,
My life has no meaning or rhyme,
like notes to a song out of time,
how can I repay,
you for having faith in me.

God bless you,
you make me feel brand new,
for God bless me with you,
you make me feel brand new,
I sing this song for you

Notes:
To my precious love thank you for making me feel brand new.

The Way of The Soul

I hold it true, whatever befall
I feel it when I sorrow most
It is better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.

I Long To See

A night was near, a day was near
Between a day and night
I heard sweet voices calling clear
Calling me...
I heard a whirr of wing on wing
But could not see the sights
I long to see my birds that sing
I long to see.

Below the stars, beyond the moon
Between the night and day
I heard a rising falling tune
Calling me...
I long to see the pipes and strings
Whereon such minstrels play
I long to see each face that sings
I long to see.

To-day or may be not to-day
To-night or not to-night
All voices that command or pray
Calling me...
Shall kindle in my soul such fire
And in my eyes such light
That I shall see that heart's desire
I long to see.

That I shall see my heart's desire
I long to see.


By Christina Rossetti (1830-1894)

The picture was taken at Lycavittos Hill, Athens.