Saturday Night

Just got invited to have dinner in my friend's place.
Though, I'm not in the good mood to have kind of chitty-chatty with a stranger today, I accepted her invitation anyway.
My friend wants to introduce me with her "boyfriend", so I think ok.
Why not..?
Since I've heard about this guy zillion times and since I live only one floor away from her.

Anyway, I'm home now.
With a full stomach, with a warm face because of the foods and the wines.
Well, I didn't stay long there.
Be honest, not really enjoyed it.
Don't know why, just don't want to give a judgement a way to soon.
Don't want to be the judge either.

Nevermind.
Now I have my space again.
Alone..,
just me - myself - and - I.
And it feels good.
:)


*Everybody needs sometime to be alone..!*

Saturday Afternoon

Still saturday..
Still raining..

Suddenly, the wind becomes so angry.
He blown up everything on his way.
The leaves flitters everywhere.
Lost in the swirl of heartless storm.
The rainburst becomes rapid and faster..
Make the picture outside of my window even worse.

Just like what the old said, There's a sunshine after the rain.
Suddenly, the storm has gone.
The gloomy has went away.
The sun shining on my window.
So bright..
Until it's radiance started to hurting my eyes.
Should I wear my sun-glasses in my bedroom..?
It's kind a weird, isn't it..?
:)

*Well, I feel happy anyway.. knowing that the old people are so true..!*

Saturday Morning

The moment I woke up this morning, I feel so exhausted.
It seems that I had a bad dream last night.
About something absurd, which is I can't even remember what it was.
Just feel so annoyed and tired instead of energized.
Oh geez..

Thank's God it's saturday..
I don't have plan to go anywhere just want to stay home.
It's still raining outside, day become more grey than before.
Leaving home is the last thing I wanna do.

So here I am.
Let my fingers dancing on the keyboard, while I keep staring through the window...
Watching how wind look so happy playing with the rain.
The birds seems don't care at all with the weather.
They keep on flying high in the sky.., or maybe they just take a shower. (Do anybody knows what is on their mind..?)
:)
Sometimes, when they get tired or bored..
They just landed silently above the church's roof across my window, and remains still for a while.

I wish I could fly.., so I could joining them.
Flying high in the sky...
Watching how small the earth is from above...
Playing with the giant marshmallow...
And going to my lovely nest somewhere in the suburb of Jakarta.
I wish.

*Miss my family so much..!*

A Candle

Today, as those other days in autumn has been very gloomy.
Rain has never been stop pouring the ground since this morning.
The wind blow so hard, making some noisy sound outside the window.
The sun has never shown up.

Feeling so dis-oriented...
Looking for nothing...
Try to find something...
Anything.

There are so much things in my mind right now.
Been thinking and thinking about this and that..
Really want to put them nicely into some words..
But not being able to make them organized.

Oh no.
For my dearest friend, I just want to thank you for sharing the-story-of-your-amazing-life with me.
I'm very proud of you...
My dearest friend, your family is right...
You are a candle.., who bring the light into the darkness.
You sacrificed yourself without ever looking for a return.

*From the bottom of my heart, I wish you will find your own candle someday..!*

Soul

Tongue tied I sail
memory pulses,
gathering paces nude
of waterfalls.

Night is male
talking darkly,
nights found me
in the breasts.


-Fo Lebene-